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A Prison Mentality: My Husband’s Journey from a Teenage Inmate to Surviving in the System

My husband’s journey into the prison system began at just 17 years old when he was sent to a maximum security prison in Missouri. Thrown into a world of hardened criminals and violent environments, he quickly realized that survival meant adopting a "prison mentality." The influence of gangs wasn’t just pervasive—it was a way of life, a necessity for survival in a place where the weak were preyed upon, and alliances often meant the difference between life and death.

At 17, my husband faced a grim reality. He was in an environment where violence, manipulation, and survival instincts ruled. The influence of gangs became part of his daily life, and he told himself that he would become a "career criminal." It was the only way he knew to cope with the harshness of his surroundings. The idea of reform or rehabilitation was not on his radar; instead, the focus was on surviving each day in an unforgiving world.

One of the most shocking realizations for him was how easy it was to access drugs inside the prison compared to the outside world. Drugs were everywhere, a common currency, and a way to escape the grim reality of incarceration. This availability made it easy for many, including him, to fall deeper into addiction, further cementing the criminal mindset that prison life fostered.

As the years passed, my husband saw a pattern unfold—those he loved, dated, or even those who claimed to care, slowly forgot about him as his sentence dragged on. The longer he stayed inside, the more isolated he became. This wasn’t just a physical isolation; it was an emotional and psychological one as well.

His abandonment issues, rooted in a childhood marred by neglect from his mother, only intensified in prison. The sense of being forgotten, of being left behind by the world, became a significant trauma that he carried with him. This feeling of abandonment fueled his need for connection, which often led him into dangerous associations and further entrenched his "prison mentality."

The trauma my husband experienced in his childhood didn’t just vanish when he entered prison. Instead, it followed him, shaping his interactions and decisions in a place where vulnerability was a liability. His early experiences with abandonment laid the foundation for how he would navigate the brutal realities of prison life. The lack of support and the sense of being discarded by society only deepened his resolve to embrace the criminal lifestyle as his identity.

Looking back, my husband sees how these early experiences—both in his childhood and when he first entered prison—shaped the man he became. The gang influence, the easy access to drugs, and the constant feeling of being forgotten all played into the narrative he created for himself as a "career criminal." But these experiences also carry the weight of unresolved trauma, trauma that has affected his entire life and continues to be a battle he faces every day.

My husband’s story is not unique—many young men enter the prison system at an age where they are still forming their identities, only to have those identities shaped by the harsh and often dehumanizing environment of incarceration. The influence of gangs, the ease of access to drugs, and the deep-seated trauma from their pasts create a cycle that is difficult to break. For my husband, the journey began at 17, but it’s a journey that has defined much of his life.

As we work together to navigate his path toward rehabilitation and healing, we are also confronting these deep-rooted issues head-on. It’s a reminder of the importance of understanding the full picture—the experiences, the traumas, and the influences that lead someone down a path they never intended to take.

Micah 6:8 (NIV): “He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”

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